My Aunt's Testimony for My Grandma

September 27, 2013 – 21:00 PM was the most heartbreaking moments of all. 

I was at her side for the last 15 hours of her life.

Her arms were swollen, battered and bruised; 

Her breath was deep and heavy.

I touched, held her hand and sang hymns continuously to give her strength and comfort she needed. 

Her favorite song is 'Thou, My Everlasting Portion' (Berdekat Pada Mu) 

I stroke her hair, kissed her, wiped her tears, 

And telling her how much we love her and she shouldn’t worry about dad as we would take care of him.

I know she could hear us although she couldn’t open her eyes or say anything; 

Only tears came out from her closed eyes.

Although we loved her dearly, we couldn’t make her stay...

God saw that she was getting tired so He put His arms around her and whispered ‘Come with Me’.

With tearful eyes we watched her fade away….!

Good Bye mom….! 

I love you so much! 

You are the only person who know and understand me well and I am grateful for this. 

Till we meet again…!

A Testimony to My Grandparents..

I got teary eyes after reading my aunt's status on FB..
And suddenly,i realized something..
Since i join a choir with JFC on 2008, never i invite my grandparents to come to the concert and watch me singing in a choir..
And i'm too shy to singing solo in front of my grandparents..
Even when grandma was hospitalized, i also doing nothing for her. 
I just massanging her feet and feed her..
but when my grandma died on 27 Sep 2013, and when my grandpa died on 29 Oct 2013, daddy asking me to sing a song at the night when the coffin will be closed before the cremation. 
And i felt so sad..how come i never realized about this? how come i sing a song when they can even hear me?
After grandpa cremation on 1 Nov 2013, i went to have the last rehearsal at Greenville..
At that time, i almost give up to go to rehearse with JFC n GDC due to traffic. 
But God has given me a lot of good friends around me, so i can keep going and join the rehearsal that night. Everything went well..And after messiah concert..i knew for once..
That God has arrange everything..
Even though i'm not singing that well, but i know, i have put my best to sing the Messiah Oratorio 
And i knew, my grandparents must be so proud of me and we have sing well in the concert..
The Messiah Concert on 2 Nov 2013, is not just an ordinary concert for me,,it's extraordinary.. 
And JFC & GDC has make it happen..
I hope it will be a good farewell present for my grandparents..
love you,grandma n grandpa..be happy there..

My Favourite Quote from K-Drama : Master's Sun

Membuat pilihan dan melindungi sesuatu adalah sesuatu yang sulit dilakukan. 

Bahkan jika kau sudah membuat pilihan, tidak ada yang tahu apa yg akan terjadi. 

Bahkan saat kau membuat keputusan sulit, 

Itu mungkin membuatmu masuk ke dalam kondisi yang lebih sulit. 

Karena memberi seseorang dengan cinta tidak berarti selalu memberi kebahagiaan. 

Pilihan adalah untuk dibuat setiap orang. 

Aku hanya bicara tentang seseorang yang saling mencintai. 

Jantung itu belum juga lahir, dan jantung itu sudah ada di sebelah kiri, jantung seseorang yang memeluk semua ini adalah yang paling sulit. 

Tapi yang pasti adalah bila kau memilih cinta, kau tidak akan kesepian. 

Karena momen saat kau bertemu pandang dengan mata yang lain,

makan bersama dengan yang lain, dan tersenyum untuk mereka, 

Akan membayar semua masalah yang dilalui untuk melindungi cinta itu 

My Aunt's Letter to my grandpa

LETTER TO DAD
Dearest Dad : 
I believe there is no more tears running down on your cheek by now as you are re-united with Mom in Heaven on Tuesday, October 29, 2013 at 08:15 AM. 

It has been just 1 month and 1 ½ day since Mom left us on Friday, September 27, 2013 at 21:00 PM.

Since Mom’s departure, you always told us that you were so sad that you wanted to join her immediately. I understand well how your heart was broken because of her departure. You even told us that you and Mom were inseparable because she was your only soul mate, same as “Sampek Engtay”. 

It is very hard for me to let you go within a short time after Mom’s departure. My tears were not dry yet from Mom’s departure, and now you had also left me with a sudden departure.

I am so saddened because inside my heart, I will always be the little girl who needs you…

Your gentle smile and voice which always comforted me will be missed in this world forever.

I thank you for being such a wonderful and patient Dad.
I thank you for being such a loving, wonderful and loyal husband to Mom.
I thank you for your hard working to make things the best they could be for all of us.
I thank you for accompany Mom during her sickness although you were also not in good condition at that time. 
I thank you for letting me spend time with you for the last 5 days of your life. 
It is an honor for me to take care of you during this time. If only I knew I would do better than what I had done for you. You were so weak but you still felt very sorry to bother me, every time I cleaned...
I enjoyed the time when I prepared your meal, helped you taking shower, applied body lotion all over your body, even when I cleaned and cut your nails.
Dad, I thank you for everything…

All of us and all people who knew you will always remember :
That special smile and greetings…
That caring and kind heart…
That immeasurable patience especially for Mom and us…
That wisdom of life that you showed and taught us…
That simplicity in life you led us to learn…
That passion for singing in Church choir…
That commitment to be God’s servant at Church…
That responsibility you took for family and Church…
That faith and love to our Lord Jesus…

I am so proud of you Dad!
They will never be another one to replace you in my heart. All memories about you will always be embedded in my heart. 

I believe that you had already re-united with Mom in Heaven, where there is 
No more tears, 
No more sickness,
No more loneliness,
No more broken heart,
And these beliefs strengthen and comfort me…

I am also glad that I was able to fulfill your request to return home before your departure.

A home and shop where you and Mom raised us, 
A home and shop where you and Mom worked so hard every single day for more than half of century to support all of us,
A home and shop where all the laughter and endless good memories of our family were stored. 

I love you so much Dad!
You are the best Dad anyone could ever ask for and I am truly lucky to have you!

Although my heart is broken, I know I have to let you go…
Although it is the most difficult thing to do in any relationship, I know - now I have to say GOOD BYE DAD…
Till we meet again!

-Your youngest daughter-